As I have become lost in my 30's God has recently blessed me with this great sense of loss and emptiness.  What's so great about a sense of loss or feeling empty and hollow, you ask? Well nothing really.  Actually its pretty awful.  Except that its a gift from God to remind me of where to get found and what will truly satisfy.  I am reminded of a couple of Keith Green songs (yes the Keith Green from the late 70's, early 80's - strangely enough my 2 favorite christian artists were and still are Keith Green and Rich Mullins - both of whom died young in accidents and they were my favorites long before they passed).  Here's one:

Grace By Which I Stand

Lord, the feelings are not the same,

I guess I'm older, I guess I've changed.

And how I wish it had been explained,

that as you're growing you must remember,

That nothing lasts, except the grace of God, by which I stand, in Jesus.

I know that I would surely fall away, except for grace, by which I'm saved.

Lord, I remember that special way,

I vowed to serve you, when it was brand new.

But like Peter, I can't even watch and pray, one hour with you,

And I bet, I could deny you too.

But nothing lasts, except the grace of God, by which I stand, in Jesus.

I'm sure that my whole life would waste away,

except for grace, by which I'm saved.

But nothing lasts, except the grace of God, by which I stand, in Jesus.

I know that I would surely fall away, except for grace, by which I'm saved.

GREEN

AND

BLACK!!!

AND IF YOU DON'T KNOW

YOU'D BETTER FIND OUT!

BECAUSE IT MATTERS!